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I've nothing much to tell.

I wore this for a meeting with a friend of mine to look at an apartment she might move into.The two people that already live in there were real nice but so old,like...25.This decision is not easily made.Soon I'll have to decide for an apartment too.And oh..I don't get along easy with all kinds of human.I'm often quiet and I'm not looking for partyyyyy-ish people.Mehh,whatever.

I hope you've had a good day?


P.S.I want THAT skirt.A bit longer,though.It's so keeewl!

Weeelllllllllll, today was huuge! I woke up,Nanny,coffee,getting my photos(REAL photos from a 7-bucks-camera),back home,another coffee,loving the photos.

Here are some of them and new clothy clothes!

See the Pokémon?

Today's outfit with one of my favorite works by Félix Vallotton in the background.
I wanted to post about things that make me happy.But on the search for photos I somehow stopped.I've had the idea because every morning I watch The Nanny with 2 cups of coffee and that is just THE morning ritual.Maybe it is just that those things vary.
Right now it's Basia Bulat and the memories that go along with her music.
So what is it that makes you happy,are there any rituals?

She's soo gorgeous and I always try to handle the little kiddos from the family I'm working at like she does.The have some good laughs at least.But no..it's really like I'm good friends with them or like I'm their sister so I love The Nanny even more!




And because I can't pick just one good scene(because many details make it a good series where I feel so at home) I'm posting the theme song:

Well,it's been almost a month since my last post.I somehow didn't feel like posting or couldn't because I was in Holland.Hmm,it's pretty nice there,very decent and simple.The days have been spent laying at the beach,swimming and walking,and in the afternoon we went to the restaurant at the beach for some drinks and something to eat.The air there is just a dream,it feels so healthy to be there,even if the hair is full of sand,the skin covered with salt and you walk barefoot all day.
So now this is what I put together for today:The belt is so kewwl!

Here is a cape I found that was worn by a singer and..I really would like to have such a thing,the colours are not the prettiest,though.Maybe I'll keep up knitting again:
Oh,and this is a blouse that I've been given from/by my grandmother.First,when I saw it I thought that the pattern was quite..80'ies maybe and yes..could be nice.But then I wore it and was like.O......kay.... Does anyone of you have any idea what to do with it? (ehh..great composition and all,obviously NOT self-taken photo and excuse the mess...it's not my room of course)

AND I am looking for girls wearing knee socks and boots/whatever shoes with skirts.Has any of you seen good ideas somewhere?

God,no pretty colours in this post.I'm going to add my favorite song by CocoRosie though youtube doesn't offer the best version.

In the best version someone says the chorus words,he says them like he does in the ending:

Ohh,it's been so long.

I've been busy with...you know,things.

But yesterday our stepfather sent us shopping because we needed new dresses for Holland(err..my wardrobe is as good as empty..) and I came back with 2 skirts,2 dresses,a pullover and other pieces that needn't be mentioned here.

Also,my mama woke up from the artificial coma and I'm SO relieved and again I want to thank everyone for their thoughts and kind,kind words and prayers.She's a little hard to handle these days but..she's awake at least.


The pullover will be for nights at the beach in Holland,umm yes.

The tree will keep me company at the beach.

The yellow dress is the Inception-dress

and the skirt is..I don't know why I bought it.I bought another one as well,light blue,simple,longer.

I hope this blog won't be as dead as it's been the last days after Holland,I've had something like a blog depression.

Have a good night&good dreams.

Today was a dark day.

Since days I feel sick and today has been the worst.For the first time since quite a lot of days I could see my mother.She is in intensive care.She is in an artificial coma since days.There are wires all around her and she doesn't breath on her own.It was the worst and most gruesome thing I've ever seen to see her lying there so helplessly,asleep,having a wire that gets into her body and to see how mechanically her breast went up and down.Her lips were purple and swollen.How helpless she looked.It was unbearable to me.

I wonder what one thinks or dreams of if he/she's in a coma.I wonder if she will remember us holding her hand or what we said to her.I was so happy to feel her body being warm.I didn't expect that as she doesn't breath on her own.But yes,her heart beats on his own of course,so she should be warm.

The intensive care station was like hell.There are only 12 beds and in every room there were people between heaven and earth.I've had that picture on my mind.The souls of everyone there in a white,cloudy space and they just have to chose which door to take.

Oh,diseases and everything that has to do with it are so mean!I could never handle it.

I wonder if any of you have experiences with artificial comas and how the patients react when they wake up?

This post is not like 'fishing for pity' but I had to write it down somewhere and maybe hear what experiences you've had.

May all of you and your families be healthy and jolly.

Goodnight.

Inní mér syngur eðli

Due to rather not-so-positive happenings I haven't had time for posting or taking photos.
Well,today I had.I even had time for editing it just to cover up the untidy room.
A song that accompanied me through this time was Inní Mer Syngur Vitleysingur by Sigur Rós.It means 'Within me sings a lunatic'.The title is nothing to do with how I feel these days,just by the way.
Again,I am so surprised how much strength and dear words I get from christian people.Mind-blowing.
First the song,really, listen to it,it's...so dear(if a song can be dear): (Icelandic is such an interesting language,I've learnt a little about it the last days)



And now what I'm wearing today: